Kill Joy

Walking the Great Trail from the Kinsel Trestle to the 66 mile Trestle on the beautiful sunny day filled me with awe in the natural beauty that is available for free to use and enjoy.  

My mom joined us to walk over the Kinsel Trestle, something she has wanted to do for a long time.  

Then my sister-in-law, Crystal walked the rest of the 21 km together and filled our day with heart felt conversation.  It is hard not to feel gratitude surrounded by nature at its best.  

I  love where my life is right now.  All the working through my emotions has brought me to this place of peace and tranquility.  I feel so fortunate to be blessed with such an amazing support system.  I have a fun and entertaining relationship that brings me happiness.  I am on an adventure that makes me feel purpose driven.  I have a body that is healthy and strong enough to take me on walks with people who share their hearts with me.  I am a very fortunate woman!

Then all of a sudden I am filled with fear.  There was one other time my life felt like it was in this amazing place, the year leading up to Robin’s death and then suddenly it all shattered.  That is my fear!  All of a sudden all of this will be taken away.

But then I pause, take a big breath and say, “I don’t know what tomorrow brings but for today I will appreciate, enjoy and relish in ALL my blessings, free of fear.”