Cross Canada Trip ... Take Two
Have you ever planned something then worried and fretted about taking the leap and once the plans started you wondered why on earth you worried in the first place.
Or...
Conjured up an adventure and played little movies in your head imagining how it would all work out and your adventure turned out way better than you could ever imagine?
The reality of how my trip is working out is far beyond anything I imagined. It’s not like I am having grand walks and experiences it is more about the feelings that accompany this journey.
This cross Canada trip is more like a cross Canada visit. Having time to spend quality time with family and friends, old and new, relaxing in their homes, fitting into their schedules, having open and honest conversations, laughing and laughing more.
I loved my life before but everything I have gone through in the past 5 years has pushed me to live life fuller, richer and not be so cautiously. My hope is the writing I do about my meanderings in some way helps some people, or maybe you, find an activity where you can be present, write down your memories so you can let go and move forward to enjoy the simple pleasures that life offers.
There is one downfall about this adventure I am on, saying goodbye everyday!!!
Life feels so good I don’t want things to change. And that is what change, loss, grief are all about. Not wanting to say goodbye. We fight back by holding on tight thinking if we let go we will forget, love less, or loose the feeling we had, but the holding on gets us stuck. It is when we let go and say goodbye that it opens the door for another experience.
This is it!! In a nut shell why I wanted to, why I needed to fully grieve the loss of my dog, my house, my first boyfriend, my cousin, my first best friend and my husband. I needed to fully feel the loss and let them go by writing down the memories we shared together because I didn’t want to miss out on the beauty of living.
And this world is phenomenal and fun!!
Here are some pictures of my last couple days.
Or...
Conjured up an adventure and played little movies in your head imagining how it would all work out and your adventure turned out way better than you could ever imagine?
The reality of how my trip is working out is far beyond anything I imagined. It’s not like I am having grand walks and experiences it is more about the feelings that accompany this journey.
This cross Canada trip is more like a cross Canada visit. Having time to spend quality time with family and friends, old and new, relaxing in their homes, fitting into their schedules, having open and honest conversations, laughing and laughing more.
I loved my life before but everything I have gone through in the past 5 years has pushed me to live life fuller, richer and not be so cautiously. My hope is the writing I do about my meanderings in some way helps some people, or maybe you, find an activity where you can be present, write down your memories so you can let go and move forward to enjoy the simple pleasures that life offers.
There is one downfall about this adventure I am on, saying goodbye everyday!!!
Life feels so good I don’t want things to change. And that is what change, loss, grief are all about. Not wanting to say goodbye. We fight back by holding on tight thinking if we let go we will forget, love less, or loose the feeling we had, but the holding on gets us stuck. It is when we let go and say goodbye that it opens the door for another experience.
This is it!! In a nut shell why I wanted to, why I needed to fully grieve the loss of my dog, my house, my first boyfriend, my cousin, my first best friend and my husband. I needed to fully feel the loss and let them go by writing down the memories we shared together because I didn’t want to miss out on the beauty of living.
And this world is phenomenal and fun!!
Here are some pictures of my last couple days.
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